Tis the season....so what?

Christmas comes but once a year and this year I have NOT done one thing to get ready for it. I went to some parties, and did comedy at a work function, but the only thing I managed to get "done" was send my sister the card she requested with a little something extra inside.

Usually I am full of Yule tide and merry berries but this year I can't seem to care one bit. For some reason it all seems empty, and not warm or full of cheerful anticipation.

2008 was not GREAT...in fact it was a little piece of hell. It tested me physically and emotionally with little room for joy. I'm glad to be on the other side of it and look forward to a brighter 2009, hope does spring eternal at least that's something to be grateful for as we face another Midnight Mass.

Or maybe it's just not that important to me anymore. The shopping, the rushing around, the acts of giving and getting aren't what they used to be. I guess I'm just tired.

Virginia and I both know that there is a Santa Claus, he's out there making the world a brighter and happier place. It's a Wonderful Life and White Christmas still make me cry. The Grinch hasn't stolen anything from me, but things are just not the same anymore.

I plan on losing myself in Seasons One through Three of LOST. I won them in a silent auction for a fundraiser benefiting a woman's shelter. So this year will be known as the LOST CHRISTMAS.

Maybe next year old things will be remembered and new ones will tint my life a bit rosier. Until then you can find me in the hatch trying to figure out what the hell is going on....